Around this time I became disenchanted with my job as a computer programmer at Southwest Airlines. I had it good, but I was not cut out to be a programmer. We went on a nine month process of finding a full-time ministry position in youth and/or worship. We interviewed with several places and found a job at a charismatic Lutheran church in El Paso. We went with the best of intentions but it turned out to be a nightmare. We were not ready for the cultural change in El Paso, we were immature in our walk and we were misused by the pastor. We made a core group of really good friends in our small group that we still miss. We wondered if we were in God's will... We wondered why God would allow us to move our family from those we loved... We wondered if God wanted us to do ministry at all. We were hurt, angry and confused. We stayed exactly one year to the day and packed our bags to "go home" so I could finish my Bachelors Degree in music at Greenville College.